Saturday, December 21, 2013

Christmas Card 2013

Wow, what a year it has been. I think it's been a few years since I've written a Christmas letter. Although I believe most of you we are sending this letter to already know all the we have been through the past few years.

For 7 weeks in the summer of 2012, our whole family, including the dog we got in January traveled the United States with everyone picking some destinations that they really wanted to see. We went to Yellowstone, Mount Rushmore/Crazy Horse, Memphis, New Orleans, Disney World, Gator Park, Key West, the Jersey Shore, NYC, Philly, Washington DC. and visited with several friends and many family members in various states along the way. We ended to going to 30 states in the 7 weeks. Although it was 6 of us and a dog cooped up in a motorhome, we truly had an amazing time and have many fond memories! We still have the motorhome and have taken it on several weekend trips and to the local beach. Along the trip our motorhome was affectionately named the "brass monkey" by a friend's son.

When school started in 2012, Faith started her Senior year in high school, she continued with competitive cheer at California Allstars and traveled with her mom to Las Vegas and Dallas, bringing her whole family to Palm Springs to watch her compete in cheer competitions, where most of the time they placed 1st and were grand champions. She cheered the season before, but had to step down with all that was going on at home with surgeries being scheduled around her competitions dates.

Early on in 2013, Sean started another business as well as continuing several others. On June 14, 2013, Faith graduated from high school. This was quite and accomplishment and we were all very proud of her, not many kids go through their last two years of high school with a parent battling cancer and all the help she had to put into our family.

At the end of June, Melanie's sister Julie passed out at home, was rushed to the hospital, and ended up passing away on the 4th of July as she was unconcious she went too long with out oxygen. Melanie spent 2 weeks out there at the beginning of summer. All of this ended up being due to her heart and was a complete fluke thing. Another reminder that life is short and that we need to live it to the fullest. Faith and Melanie attended her funeral in mid July. This was a very hard time for our family and Julie will forever be missed and thought of everytime fireworks go off.

Melanie has been continuously getting brain scans every 3 months and for the first year they all came back clean, with no changes, or nothing visible on the MRI. However in June 2013, the oncologist thought it looked like there was about a 10% change/growth. We knew another surgery was immanent, as the "natural" treatments we had been doing we not helping, nor was the vaccine.

In September 2013, we decided to have another surgery and after a great deal of research, meeting with doctors, we decided to move from UCLA to Cedar Sinai Hospital and to have another surgery with Dr. Black, a world famous brain surgeon. The surgery was successful and Melanie recovered from the surgery with the help of her family and her mom coming down to help as she did for each surgery. Since the tumor had grown so much about 20% by Dr. Black and the tumor board's findings, it was advised for Melanie to start chemotherapy. She started on December 13th taking Temodar, a pill form of chemo, for 5 days on and 23 days off. This will continue for approximately a year and the doctors think this will help postpone another surgery.

Faith just completed her first semester of college at Palomar, a local community college while Josh and Zach just completed their first trimester in 4th and 2nd grades. Ben will start Kindergarten in the Fall of 2014 and he is currently being home schooled for preschool by Melanie. Zach played another season of baseball, with Sean as his coach, and Ben played his first season of T-ball, while Josh was in the Chess Club at school. Josh, Zach, and Ben participate in the running club at their elementary school, while Melanie volunteers for it. Melanie does a lot of volunteering in the classroom. Josh and Zach have quite a school, each student has an iPad, they do yoga, karate, garden science (which Melanie volunteers for), music, PE and many other activities no longer offered in public school.

We have been blessed this year with great friends and family who have helped us out through the hard times and been there in the good times. May you all have a wonderful Christmas and a blessed new year!

The Kabos
Melanie, Sean, Faith, Josh,
Zach, Ben and Honey (our dog)

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Saturday, December 14, 2013

Chemo...feeling like a failure

On my last oncology visit, Dr.Rudnick (12/11/13) said he'd really like me to start on chemo right away. I, of course, had a plan in my head and told him that I wanted to wait until the start of the new year, so that I could enjoy my holidays with my family and have time to sit down with a calendar to plan my 5 days on, 23 days off and avoid important dates next year, such as spring break, birthdays, etc.

He informed me that it's not that easy, because of my white blood cell count, we may need to push the start of my chemo on different months, so it won't stick to a schedule and with my tumor growing by 20% he wanted me to start right away and the chemo came in the mail the very next day (12/12/13) after my doctors appointment...

So I started my 5 days on Friday the 13th!!!

Day one: I took the chemo pills (4 of them) as well as my anti-nausea pill with a large cup of water at night, so I'm not sure if this should technically be called day one or not as the next day is really the first full day. Anyways, that night I must have gotten up to pee about 6 times when I usually don't get up to pee until the morning time. Not sure if that was a side effect or if it was because of the large glass of water I drank.

Everything went well during the day, but I was still peeing more frequently that usual as well as drinking more water than usual as I'm supposed to drink a lot of water with this chemo.

Day 2: The morning after my second dose as well as during the night my stomach felt really crampy, like shooting pains through it and after talking with a friend who had taken this type of chemo...stool softeners were soon going to be my best friend!!

Day 3: The stool softeners did the trick and my stomach felt much better, I felt pretty good still, started to get a little tired.

Day 4: The day after my 4th dose is when it hit me, it was a Monday and as soon as I picked my kids up from school, I had to come home and lay down. I was exhausted and starting to feel like I had the flu.

Day 5: It definitely hit me, I even posted on Facebook that I felt like I had gotten run over by a bus. My whole body ached. During the middle of the night my husband put his arm around me and it felt like my whole arm was bruised and if you know me, touch is my love language, I had to push Sean's arm off of me.

Day 6: Oh yes, it hit me. Last night was my last 4 pills, but today I feel like a train wreck. I feel like I have the flu, everything aches. But I don't have the flu, luckily.

Day 7: Today I'm feeling slightly better, a little achy when I woke up, but definitely better than yesterday! Which is good, today (and every Wednesday) my kiddos have running club at school, so I usually try to run with them and volunteer. But this day on my walk to their school, I fell down and ended up scraping my hand pretty bad, which took forever to stop bleeding (I think the chemo must thin my blood, because I've never had this happen before). I realized then that it wasn't a good idea for me to run or even walk the 1.5 miles with my boys, so I stayed back and timed the kids as they came in. I also got to hand out candy canes to the runners!!

Day 8: Feeling good today, still a little sore, I decided to do my cancer yoga class, which is great for stretching and relaxing. It felt good and I felt wonderful for the rest of the day!!

Next round of Chemo will begin on January 10th if all goes well and my blood wotk comes back good! It will be a higher dose, so I'm keeping track via this post of how my days went, but it may (hopefully it won't) be different, but next time I'll have my mom down helping me as much as she can!!

Thursday, December 12, 2013

Results and my next steps...chemo :(

The surgery went well and Dr. Black believes that he removed everything that is visible on the MRI and the pathology showed that it is still a low grade tumor (stage 2) and the cells are dividing at a 3% rate. Now I took that number to mean that that is the rate it is growing, however I was sadly mistaken.

Yesterday, Sean and I went to see my new oncologist, Dr. Rudnick up at Cedar Sinai Hospital. He and the whole tumor board recommend that I start chemo as he said my tumor grew quickly (complete shock to me as I was thinking, mistakenly that it was growing at a 3% rate), and Dr. Rudnick believes it has grown 20% since my last surgery 18 months ago.

He recommended starting chemo, which we knew he would and planned to start it after the holidays. However, because of the rate of growth, Dr. Rudnick, recommended starting it right away and said that since we don't know how much it's currently growing, the sooner I start the better. So they ordered my chemo (pill form) to be delivered to my house and it came today...

....along with a lot of warnings! As well as coming in a specially marked bag!!

*I have to pee in my own toilet, not shared with others.
*I have to flush twice if I puke.
*I can't touch the chemo pills as they are toxic and have to pour them into the lid to take them.
*My kids and husband can't touch the chemo pill bottle

Along with all the warnings came many strong side effects...

*severe nausea and vomiting
*headache (which the anti nausea pills cause also, yay me!)
*loss of appetite (that part I really don't mind)
*night sweats
*and the rare symptoms...mouth sores, swelling of feet/ankles, easy bleeding, bruising, swollen glands

I've also been told by those who have taken it that it'll hit hardest after my chemo cycle is over, you mean to tell me that when I think I'll be celebrating finishing my chemo, I may actually be worse off than while taking it...that just doesn't make sense!!

So with all of that being stated, I will be starting these pills on Friday night, hoping that I'll feel OK for the weekend with my family and only getting sick during the week while my kids are in school, feeling better by next weekend (I can dream, can't I?)!!

I'll try to keep this updated on how the chemo makes me feel, what it does, etc...
I'm definitely going to keep a journal.